“Choice” what does that exactly mean..? Google tells us that a choice is an act of selecting or making a decision when faced with two or more possibilities. In life we always have two choices. Whether to choose good or evil. Another word that signifies a choice is free will. God gave us the free will to choose whatever path we want to take. Whether we choose to live life with God or without God. I’m not going to lie, sometimes it’s hard to choose the right thing. Sometimes our flesh is easier and pleasing to follow. But the thing is one way is eternal and the other leads to death. There have been times where I failed God, still sometimes I fail God and I hate myself for it. I would be so mad and not forgive myself. But I realize at the end of the day that it’s a choice. If I fail God, it’s okay I have to let God pick me up and keep going. Its about when you fail understanding what you did wrong, and choosing to do better. It’s not about staying in the same hole you put yourself in, you have to learn from your mistakes and move on… I once poured out my heart to a man of God and told him I don’t feel happy anymore. I don’t feel loving anymore and I don’t feel like me anymore. First off let me tell you that happens when you don’t connect yourself to God. John 4:14 tells us that “anyone who drinks the water I give will never be thirsty again. The water I give people will be like a spring flowing inside them. It will bring them eternal life.”” This means that whenever we connect to God, we will never look to the left or to the right. Why..? Because we are satisfied in him, and understand that he is enough to meet all our needs. We will look straight ahead and keep trying to draw ourselves closer and closer to him. He will bring wholeness, love, and endless joy. Most importantly we won’t feel empty and ugly inside. Back to what I was saying, after I told this man of God that, he said “than be happy! Be loving!”. He said everything in life is a choice, so choose to do better and be better! As someone who has sinned and failed God, i can tell you how awful it feels. Trust me if i could be face to face with you i would tell you, i g e t i t …. I would feel so depressed and be angry at myself. The truth is no one wants to fail in life, neither do we want to fail God. But it happens sometimes, the important part is when we fail him, that we learn from it. When God said he looks at the heart, he wasn’t kidding. God sees if you genuinely don’t want to fail him. I remember when i was younger and i would masturbate. After i finished committing that sin, i felt so dirty. I would be so mad and hate myself. I would cry and tell God i don’t want to do this, i know it doesn’t please you. I believe that first step to doing better is recognizing what you are doing wrong. Second is choosing to be better and give it to God. The thing is, you haven’t been able to conquer your situation because you’ve been doing it on your own. This is a sacrifice day to day, its about leaving it in Gods hands daily… Its by his strength, might, love and mercy that we will be able to conquer our circumstances. Once the devil knows that God has helped you heal, conquer, be strong in that situation/area, then he will find another way to attack you (so be ready and understand his schemes/tricks). The beautiful thing about God is that he knew we were going to fail him. Thats why he sent Jesus, whats even more crazy is that Jesus broke that veil! Jesus broke the veil that separated us from the Father. Back then they didn’t have it easy, they had to sacrifice animals to spend time with the Father. Now we are so privileged and we don’t take advantage of it. When we choose Jesus we are made a new creature everyday, our past is wiped away and the new comes. 2 corinthians 5:17 says, “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” I love this because it means as we get closer to God, our old habits, our old ways are gone. It also clearly means you get a clean new slate. The new things that God has for you are waiting for you. When you choose to follow God, trust me his ways are challenging but wholesome. So trust me if you’ve failed God it’s okay. Just keep letting God bring the new to you, so he can transform you and bring heavenly things. When God said nothing can separate us from his love he literally meant nothinggggg…. Nothing you can ever do will ever be able to separate you from his love. But CHOOSE to be and do better!