Over my life I’ve hurt a lot of people. A lot of them unconsciously but to be honest most of them probably consciously. I say consciously because I knew better. As a child of God I know what to do and what not to do. I say this because I’ve done a lot of things emotion led. I didn’t really realize until now how far I let my emotions take me. That’s why In my previous blogs I’ve said you have to take care of yourself emotionally. If you don’t take care of your emotions and let God balance it the way he’s always intended it to be, you are going to affect a lot of people including yourself greatly. I realized now that in the past I was trying to be God. I obviously wasn’t in my head, consciously plotting to be God. No. I just had the heart where I knew people needed God so I would do all in my power to try to make them see that. I would want to push them closer to God. But what I wasn’t understanding is that I was trying to be God. I was trying to do everything in my own strength, when God calls and tells me, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus” Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭6‬-‭7‬ ‭NLT‬‬. He also states in his word, “So I tell you to ask for what you want in prayer. And if you believe that you have received those things, then they will be yours” Mark‬ ‭11‬:‭24‬ ‭ERV‬‬. God calls me to be patient, he also calls me to trust in him. Most importantly in both verses it may look small but it’s actually one of the most important thing he tells us to do, which is prayyyyyy. We need to pray and understand that he’s the miracle maker/doer. He’s the one who can do all things. He’s the one who is going to save these people. Yes we are his vessels but at the end of the day we aren’t the ones doing the work. It’s his power and doing, that does it. We need to understand that God calls us to do up to a certain point. We can’t continue and do his job. Sometimes we are simply meant to just plant the seed. Other times maybe he will tell you to go further. But it won’t be emotion led, it will be spiritually led. It also won’t feel forced, it will happen naturally. If you feel like you are forcing it literally imagen yourself giving it to God, that’s what I do. I take my two palms, I place the situation in his hand and I give it to him in prayer. We have to understand even God in his word says not everyone will be saved. I’m not saying you should give up on your friend or loved one. Or believe that they won’t be saved. I’m just saying stop trying to control something that only God knows the outcome of. Pray and believe that your friend or the situation will be saved. We are called to pray-have faith-trust-be patient-love, that’s what we are called to do. You are going to learn you can’t control everything in life and that’s okay. It’s crazy because I’m not a controlling person, I just care for my loved ones and I know that they need Jesus. But we as Gods people have to believe and trust when we pray. Now, what I do when I get frustrated I just leave it in Gods hands. When I see a situation that I can’t control I just give it to God and I put him in the place that’s rightfully his. He is the Lord and savior of my life. I also learned when God shows you things it’s not always for you to do something. He’s showing you so that you can pray and be one with him. He wants to use you but not always the way you think. Sometimes he shows you things so that you can simply pray and Intercede for. Something I also realized that in the midst of trying to save my friends and loved ones I was losing myself. I was too focused on taking care of everyone else’s salvation that I was losing my own. God is clear in his word, “And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul?” Mark‬ ‭8‬:‭36‬ ‭NLT‬‬. That’s why I believe in reading the word. Many people say that’s ancient but it’s not. It has alot of life situations that we go through. The word of God can help you through annnnyyy situation. The best thing you can do for someone else is take care of your own salvation first. If not you are just giving from a place of emptiness because you aren’t even connected to the one who actually saves. You have to fill yourself up with the Lord. When you are filled with the Lord that’s when you actually have something to give. You are giving or imparting from the fountain that truly satisfies/transforms/heals people. Connect yourself with God and than you will know what his people truly needs. He sees things you don’t, he sees beyond what your eyes can see. Also if you push people too much to get to God, a lot of time they are just going to go the opposite way. That’s why you give your loved one advice and motivate them to get to know God but at a certain point you need to understand it has to be out of your hands. You do your job and then give it to God. He’s the one who will do it, not you. That’s why you constantly need to take care of your salvation so you can take care of your intimacy with God. God can reveal to you what he wants you to do and what he doesn’t. You can’t possibly do it, only through Gods power. Just like we have to trust God In our own lives, we have to trust God in other peoples lives. Trust God… he knows what we need.